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Blood Flow, a powerful new memoir by Larry Bograd, opens with two life-altering events decades apart. Facing triple bypass surgery at age 53, Larry finds himself unable to escape the shadow of his father’s early death. What begins as a son’s search for answers about his physician father’s suicide grows into a deeper exploration of family ties, inherited trauma and the challenge of healing a damaged heart.

 

Over many years, Larry interviews relatives and family friends, uncovers long-buried secrets, and unearths hospital records revealing Nathan’s repeated battles with depression, including hospitalizations Larry and his siblings didn’t know about before their father’s death. His investigation leads him across continents, from post-war Trieste, where Nathan served in the Occupation Medical Corps, to the Ukrainian town of his father’s birth.

Spanning generations and geographies, Blood Flow weaves together the complexities of growing up Jewish in suburban Denver, the burden of grief, generational trauma, immigration and the universal struggle to truly understand one’s parent. At its heart, this memoir is a story of reckoning, resilience, and how the past continues to shape—and sometimes even save—our lives.

Note From The Author:

Blood Flow covers a lot of ground—growing up Jewish in suburban Denver in the 1960s, family secrets, suicide, shock and grief, seeking to understand one’s parent, international travel, uncovering previously unknown medical records, interviews with relatives—never losing sight of its central theme: the need and challenge of understanding a troubled immigrant’s life and the American child he left to mourn. 

I’ve written various drafts of this memoir over the past five decades. My first attempt was when I was nineteen years old. I had a summer job lifeguarding at the swimming pool of a new townhouse development east of Denver on what had been prairie. Owners were supposed to move in by Memorial Day. Construction problems delayed the arrival of residents until after Labor Day. So, I spent that summer watching a pool no one used except when I swam laps. I started writing my story in a spiral notebook. I entitled it Double Take because the conceit involved a teen lifeguard going crazy and drowning himself six years after his father’s suicide. Subtle? I think not. The effect was juvenile, although it preserved six-year-old memories I would use in subsequent attempts to capture that time.

I wrote new versions at least once each ensuing decade. I tried it as a novel with a first-person narrator. I tried it as a novel with a third-person voice. I dredged it of emotions and tried it as what was then called “new” journalism (and today goes by “creative non-fiction”). I broke apart the chronology (early post-modernism) and then restored it. I returned to the first-person narrator and added the plotline of my bypass surgery. I conceived and abandoned various titles—Steel in the HeartThis Sad Old World (title of a Neil Young song covered by Emily Harris), The Poignancy of Life and Suicide

Reading an earlier twenty-first-century draft, my brother said, “It’s good, but it lacks humor, and you’re funny.” So, I strategically added levity, if mostly to entertain myself, because writing the same tale of trauma became, well, almost boring. For decades, I thought I’d solved numerous structural and narrative problems, which, at its heart, is what creative writing is about: problem-solving, establishing rhetorical patterns, deepening characters, handling chronology, building pages and then cutting back, constantly seeking the secret sauce to please me and appeal to my fantasy agent/publisher/readers. Last decade (or was it the decade before?) I found a New York literary agent who loved my then-manuscript. She felt so confident about its success that she simultaneously submitted it to a dozen publishing houses, anticipating an auction and, instead, forwarded me a dozen rejection letters. 

And yet, I keep working on my most traumatic story. (Don’t most people have their one seminal trauma?) Did I finally solve tone, pacing, structure, vocabulary and other things that make writing fun and challenging? That’s your call, dear reader, as it must be. (I would answer “no.” Novels, even masterpieces, can always use another draft or three or twenty. So many authors and journalists are credited with saying/writing, “A book is never finished; it is abandoned,” that it’s become a tiresome meme.)

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About the Author

Larry Bograd

Larry Bograd is an award-winning, widely translated author whose works have been published by Farrar, Straus and Giroux, Harper, and Macmillan. In addition to a UK edition, his work has been translated into Japanese, French, Swedish, Danish and German. His first book, Felix in the Attic, won the Bank Street College Irma Simonton Black “Best Book for Children” Award, and his novel, Los Alamos Light, was selected as a UNESCO Book for Peace. He has an extensive backlist and several anthologized short stories.

He is the co-producer, co-director, and editor of two documentary features co-created with his wife, Coleen Hubbard. The first, I Can Tell the World, about the history of Spirituals music, received the Best Music Award at the Rhode Island International Film Festival.

One of his plays, The Half-Life of Karen Silkwood, commissioned by her union, was produced by several theatres across the U.S. Two of his original screenplays have been optioned.

He lives in Denver, Colorado.

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Blood Flow: Reviews

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A powerful portrait of love, grief, and the opportunity to free oneself from the past

Blood Flow, a powerful new memoir by Larry Bograd, opens with two life-altering events decades apart. Facing triple bypass surgery at age fifty-three, Larry finds himself unable to escape the shadow of his father Nathan’s death weeks after Larry turned thirteen. What begins as a son’s search for answers about his physician father’s suicide grows into a deeper exploration of family ties, trauma, grief and the challenge of healing a damaged heart. Over four decades, Larry interviews relatives, family friends and mental health professionals, uncovers long-buried secrets and unearths hospital records revealing Nathan’s repeated battles with depression—hospitalizations Larry and his siblings didn’t know about before their father’s death. His investigation leads him across continents, from post-war Trieste, where Nathan served in the Occupation Medical Corps, to the Ukrainian town that the Bograd family fled during pogroms, revolution and war. Spanning generations and geographies, Blood Flow weaves together the complexities of growing up Jewish in suburban Denver, the burdens of tragedy, immigration and the universal struggle to truly understand one’s parent. At its heart, this memoir is a story of reckoning, resilience, and how the past continues to shape—and sometimes even save—our lives.

I'm blown away

How does he do it? The question kept coming up as I read this wonderful memoir — the excruciatingly funny and painful chapter on Larry’s Bar mitzvah, for example. The magic lies in a rare ability to look the hardest truth in the eye and honor it with all the intelligence and generosity at one’s disposal, never yielding to the lure of sentimentality, always trusting in truth itself to do the work of emotion. As a result, every person and even the smallest incident comes alive. I’m blown away.

Joel Agee

Author of In the House of My Fear: A Memoir, Twelve Years, and award-winning translator.

Clear-eyed, Propulsive, Moving and True

Other people’s families can have mysterious elements, and sometimes, that is true of one’s own family. Larry Bograd’s deft look back at his personal history from across the span of decades is clear-eyed, propulsive, moving and true.

Meg Wolitzer

New York Times bestselling author of The Interestings, The Wife and many other novels

Blood Flow travels emotional landscapes of place, time, and memory

Blood Flow is a raw, unfiltered memoir that stitches together decades of family trauma, personal ambition, health battles, and the relentless search for meaning.

I loved this multifaceted book

I loved this multifaceted book. It’s for those who cherish the retelling of history by a person who hopes you might come away with a fresh perspective on events we’re familiar with – but from a deeply personal and no holds barred perspective. It’s for those who respect the fragility of life and the struggles that are hidden and now can find new ways – gifts from the author – to empathize or at least find language to express what often seems hopelessly complex. I liked the back and forth in time periods. The way the author chose to do this worked so well. I highly recommend this book.

Deena N.

Amazon Reader Review

A journey of our very humanity

Larry Bograd writes a gentle prose that is thoughtful, at times joyfully ironic, self-effacing, and mostly very humanistic. Never falling into pathos or self-pity, the story he tells, the memories and need that drive him he relates with warmth and gentleness. If there is one error in the book, it is from the tagline: “A son’s 40 year journey to understand…” ‘Blood Flow’ is not only one son’s journey, it is a journey we all take in one way or another, a journey to understand, a journey of our lives, a journey of our very humanity.

Greg D.

UK Amazon Reader Review

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